Friday, June 2, 2017

Health Update

Today was my one week follow up. Unfortunately Tuesday night I ended up catching the stomach bug going around and it's been hell. It's so rough to vomit when you're stomach is empty. I can't even hold down water.

I'm not diabetic or at risk! My level is at a 5.1 which is awesome for me! We found out I do have a severe vitamin D defiency. Normal level is 30, preferred level is a 45 or better. Mine is a 13. So there's work to be done.

We're getting an MRI done on my hip this week. My doctor believes I have severe nerve damage which wouldn't have shown in an XRay.

Due to this virus I'm off work for a week and I feel like I'm fixing to pass out again. Hopefully tomorrow I can start holding for food.

Friday, May 26, 2017

New Hairstyle


Tonight Ally wanted to get her hair cut. She's been wanting to go short and I'm a firm believer in supporting your children. So we headed off to make her wants come true.


Silly faces while making the first cut.


So much hair gone!


She's in love! All she wanted was a pixie cut like her momma and grandma.


She's beaming and in love! This is exactly what she wanted and I'm so proud to be able to do that for her. It's the little things that matter the most. (:

Graduation


My baby is officially a pre-k graduate. The ceremony was beautiful and seeing her so proud made it worthwhile.


My parents and I gave her flowers to celebrate the occasion.


This is her receiving her certificate as well as an award for creativity and best hand writing.

Im so proud of her and I'm so glad I could be there to support her.



Wednesday, May 24, 2017

Baffled

It absolutely amazes me how you can pitch such a fit about not being invited to an event and then your daughter invites you to her graduation from Head Start two weeks in advanced. You said you couldn't make it because I didn't give you enough time to request off. Now your girlfriend posts that you have three days off. So screw your kiddo? I don't understand the half ass effort. It absolutely amazes me how you can pin your family against me yet you were given an opportunity and you choose to be with your so called family. Real parenting right there. This is why I'm cutting everyone off. Ally deserves her family there for her and I'm glad her biggest supporters will be there tomorrow cheering her on.

Changes

I've had a lot of time to think and mull over life and where it is taking me. I've had time to think about my parenting and what will be in the best interest for Allisun. I've made a new friendship and while I'm on edge, it might just be our time to actually be able to coexist without issue. I've grown tired with putting in effort just to have it thrown in my face. I've grown tired of trying to figure out what is best for my daughter. I'm tired of the push and pull. I'm tired of doing what I think is best just to do what feels right and quit fighting myself.

I hit my breaking point yesterday. Between my job and my personal life I've had enough. It's time I take control of my life. It's time I'm happy for myself.

I broke free from being controlled and I'll be dammed if I go through that feeling again. So I'm cutting ties with my ex and his family. They continue to support him as family does and he isn't help accountable for anything. They are fully okay with my daughter being in that toxic environment.  I refuse. My daughter has all she needs right here. There is nothing for her in Bowie but misery.

My life is great. There are minimal complaints and I'm happy overall. I have my bad days just like anyone else but these meds have really helping me. I've felt stronger and better. Once I rid myself of the negativity I'll be even better. Now to get through this ten hour shift.