Hello lovelies! I've missed you guys. Life has been crazy busy so let's catch up!
First off life hasn't slowed down for a minute. I have to schedule my follow up on this Lexapro this week. For the month I've been on it, it has made me sleepy so when I am able to take it before bed I do get some solid sleep. Ally takes after me and talks a lot. She's a very social kid especially now that she has a solid routine. She doesn't ask for my ex or want to initiate contact which is sad but I don't blame her. I am finally seeing just how much potential I have and believing in myself. I am officially working towards General Manager now. I am in constant contact with my GM on what I can do to better myself as a manager. Shaun was hired at Whataburger as well and is working towards management himself. Overall life couldn't be better at the moment.
I have officially resigned from the lies, manipulation, and two-faced attitudes. I am focused solely on my family. I talked to my ex last night and like I told, we can get to a point where we will be able to co-parent. I have offered him to pay me gas money so he can see his daughter. This way there is no excuse to be made. As I told him last night, all I have ever wanted was his happiness and if that's with Brittany then all the better for himself. After everything she put Allisun through over the summer I have requested that he schedule visitation on his weekends off. Ally doesn't feel safe with Brittany any longer so I am trying to do what is best for her. Like I told him he is welcome to meet me to spend time with her for a few hours without Brittany's involvement. We are both trying to avoid having to go to court and pushing for supervised visitation because I know we won't agree on terms. I don't feel comfortable with his mother supervising visits so I am glad that we are able to remain civil and keep things strictly to Ally. No need for unnecessary conversation. We keep our contact to a minimum.
On a brighter note, I am really proud of Bella. She knows who Ally is and has been asking for her a lot. I am so glad that Kristina and I are super close and that our girls will have each other. They are so close to each other even though visits are slim due to finances. We are trying to move into doing more video chats so Bella can talk to Ally. They are all such beautiful girls and I know they are looking forward to our next playdate. I also know us mommies are due for a girls night out.
I am learning to fight my depression. I am thankful that I have Shaun because sometimes I need someone to push me. Someone to tell me that we are going out and not spending the day in bed. I can't tell you enough how much I love this man. He taught Ally to tie her shoes and she has mostly mastered this skill. It warms my heart watching them together. I couldn't be happier. Life is a work in progress but I have a strong support system and I am so thankful for them. I am thankful for my beautiful little girl and I can't wait to give her a special Christmas. Life truly is just getting better and better.