Saturday, April 22, 2017

Checking In

I'm still here lovelies! Life has just been a whirlwind of everything hitting at once. I don't even know where to begin with this post considering it has been such a long time since I've posted. Well, to begin the apartment is absolutely fantastic! Ally is loving having her own room and for the most part is keeping up with cleaning it. We finally have everything unpacked and I owe you guys pictures. I just feel like there isn't much to show at the moment so I may hold off.

Ally is doing great in school. Her areas of struggle are advanced for her so for right now she is right on target. I can't believe she's about to be wrapping up her first year of school. She has her moments but she is definitely my sweetheart. She has really enjoyed having her own personal space.

Work continues to exhaust me. I pulled 63 hours last week and this week I'll wrap up around 55 to 60. It sucks having to work so much but I have a great support system. I am so grateful for my friends and family. They're ongoing support is truly a blessing.

I have cut my ex-husband out once and for all. I have also cut ties with anyone in contact with him other than my MIL at the moment. I know I've said before that I was done with him but after our last conversation I realized it was the healthiest decision to cut him and his ties off altogether. He would rather sign off his rights to his daughter than put in the actual effort to be there.

This honestly isn't a big deal to me though because I can't even remember the last time he put any effort towards seeing Ally. I refuse to be like Kris and shell out money for him to come see. I feel like if he wants the time with her, he would do what was necessary to be apart of her life. Instead he continues to be a coward.

We have a secret trip planned for Ally this summer and I really hope my days off get approved. This summer is definitely going to be a fun one for Ally!

I am just shy of a month into a new relationship. S definitely shows me everything I thought I had found in R. He was there everyday when I messed up my hip. He has cooked, cleaned, spent time with, and all around been there for me. The sleepovers are fantastic and having my friend be there for me is amazing. I definitely have found happiness and I am loving this bliss.

Today after getting some much needed rest will be a family day. We'll start the day with me surprising everyone with breakfast. Pancakes and Bacon! We're gonna pick up my brother and head out to the Botanical Gardens to get pictures and enjoy a day out of the house. Then it'll be home for S to make dinner. Chicken fried steak! I have been craving it for days and so glad to have a day off so we can actually cook.

Hopefully we'll get Ally to bed early tonight and I'll be able to upload some new pics for you guys! Enjoy a wonderful Saturday lovelies. Time to curl up next to S before Ally comes to wake me up demanding pancakes.

Friday, April 7, 2017

Health

Well ladies and gents, I really did a doozie this time. It seems like health is a big deal in my family right now. Two weeks ago I injured myself at work and didn't think it was a big deal. A few days ago I caved and went to the ER. Turns out I have a small crack in my hip and I have sciatica. I had no clue that Sciatica was a big deal but apparently I pissed off the brain of our nerves. So now I am barely able to walk without wanting to cry. The joint is completely inflamed and I'm unable to take off work for any reason so I have to suffer through with it.

I really need strength for my grandma. She always pulls through so I am not too concerned but I am concerned enough because this is my grandma. I don't want to say much, just send a kind thought her way today please. Thank you lovelies!

Little Things


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1. Today is: Friday, April 7th.

2. What made you smile today?
Ally getting excited that her room is unpacked and really her room.

3. What was the best part of this week?
Getting everything moved in and starting to unpack.

4. What did you struggle with this week?
M0 y health. This will be a post by itself.

 5. Self care is not selfish. Be kind to yourself. What did you do "just for you" this week?
I made Lasagna for a friend I haven't seen in a long time.

6. Never let the things you want make you forget the things you have. List three things you were grateful for this week.
1) My friend S, he has been a tremendous pillar of support through the last couple of weeks.
2) My family for always keeping my head up even on days when it feels like the world is defeating me.
3) My beautiful daughter because everyday she pushes me to do more than I thought possible.

7. Share something fun. A quote, photo, book, website or anything else that others might enjoy.
I am honestly enjoying Vampire Diaries. I am in season seven and finding it bittersweet to come to season eight. I have been through an emotional rollercoaster with this show but I am glad I decided to revisit watching it.

8. What are you reading, watching, listening to, making, thinking, wishing, looking forward to, etc.? -
Finding a sense of normalcy through blogging and cross stitching.

9. Did you reach your goals this week? List 3 goals for next week.
Next Week's Goals
1) Get the apartment completely unpacked
2) Work on a budget that will fit our new financial needs
3) Treat ourselves to one new item for the apartment per check


 10. Sum up your week in just one sentence.
This week was hell on earth for me.


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Sunday, April 2, 2017

'Ello April

April already? It's hard to believe we're already in April and that I've gone so long without posting. Get ready for a long post filled with life juju, movie reviews, and more. I've found comfort in the silence because it isn't worth the energy wasted on feeding into other's drama. So here's a little life update. We moved yesterday. This new apartment is significantly more expensive and I worry about making ends meet but this was a necessary move for Ally. She's absolutely in love with the fact that she has her own room.

Yesterday was quite the exhausting adventure. We had to travel to get a dining room table and on the way back my friend had a blowout on the freeway in one of the busiest parts. Luckily it was back a fire and we were able to get it fixed.

I've been getting closer to my little brother lately and it's a bond I'm thankful for. I've found appreciation for the small things in life and I'm enjoying every moment of life.

Depression has a had a serious grip on me recently and I'm fighting everyday to break free from it. I'm not sure what's causing it but it's much like drowning lately. Mix that with the anxiety attacks and it just puts me to tears.

I've yet to listen to everyone and make an ER trip but a week ago I popped my hip out of place and since then it's continued to be more painful and I've yet to find to get it looked into.

Overall we're set on a pretty strong road. It took us a year to get our shit together but now we have a great vehicle whom we've named Millie and we have a beautiful apartment.

On a small tangent because it has been irking my soul. You can't claim someone who is married and you were the other woman had an affair. He had the affair with you and Brit. He didn't cheat on you with Brit. While I hold many things against her, the wrecking of a family I don't because you destroyed that first. I spent a long time being bitter about it but I've moved on. I've put my daughter first and never looked back. It took a lot of chances to finally realize he wasn't going to change but I've finally moved on. Two years now.

You were never engaged to him because how is it possible to be engaged to a married man? I'm not talking about now, I'm talking about when we were still fighting for our marriage.

That being said, Thank you Kristina for coming in and ruining my family because you revealed his true self. You showed me that behind that facade of love was a man who isn't happy with himself. You triggered my anxiety and those last few months before I wised up and left were hell. But you know what?

I forgive you. I never thought I would be able to utter that to you but I truly forgive you and I understand to some degree why you did what you did. Why you are the way you are. I just wish I would have walked away the first time he cheated with you.

Brit on the other hand, I don't have time to be bitter but I also don't have it in me to forgive you just yet. I allowed you in my home while I was still vulnerable. I gave you and your son a place to get a fresh start and while things weren't always easy we made it through. You related that kindness by trying to kill me and rubbing your affair in my face. You not only put my life in danger but my child's life and that's not something easy to forgive.


There aren't enough words to describe the beauty and pure joy I gained from seeing Beauty and the Beast. It was truly a beautiful movie. I took Ally with me and I kid you not, she didn't move through the entire movie. She laughed and sang along with it as well. For those of you that know Ally you know that's quite a feat to keep her still. It felt like reliving my childhood. It will definitely be added to my collection.


I can't tell you enough how much this brought me to my childhood. I don't have many great memories with my dad but Power Rangers is one of them. My sister and I would set alarms and get up my dad. We would make breakfast and watch Power Rangers with my dad and then the usual Saturday morning line up. We took him to see this in theaters and it was seriously all smiles between us. Ally told us we were too old to be so excited but we really enjoyed it.


Well lovelies that's about life lately. Its not perfect but it's pretty good so far. Time for our first breakfast in our new home. As I get it unpacked I'll post pictures for you guys. How has everyone been? I'll definitely be visiting blogs soon. Miss you guys!




Saturday, March 18, 2017

Meet Millie

I would love for everyone to meet Millie. She's a 2015 Nissan with 41,000 miles on her. She's absolutely perfect for us and I'm so proud of Ally and I. Next step is our apartment. (:










Friday, March 17, 2017

Irritated

I'm so irritated it isn't even funny. I've made a snarky comment or two but overall I've stayed out of the other women's business because I honestly don't care. What I do care about is how selfish people are.

Due to their need to prove they're the one he's fucking and starting shit left and right, it has distracted Jr. He has chosen to stay out of it but when it keeps being brought to his attention he has no choice but to listen.

Constantly blowing up his phone instead of leaving him alone to focus has now caused him to possibly lost the one thing he really wanted.

I'm so angry for him it's not even funny. He's been busting his ass because this is what HE wants to do but because of others insecurity they once again have to find a way to ruin it.

The funniest part is that they don't seem to understand Jr's biggest rule. What we do is our business, nobody else. Yet it's a public dick swinging constant. It might as well be a threesome at this rate since you both want to be on his dick instead of letting him focus.

You both should just do yourself a favor and focus on yourselves and leave him alone. This is getting beyond exhausting and I don't blame him one bit for going OTR. I'd want to as well if I had to deal with as much bullshit.