I don't even know where to start. I've started writing this post many times just to delete the words I've written but I guess here goes.
My aunt has been diagnosed with stage one bipolar disorder. She was told that those moments where she feels happy and like life is getting manageable is a sense of euphoria followed by a severe mood swing. Often agressive or depressive.
She has mild depression as well which I already knew.
This tears at me and has been eating at me since I found out. Kris and Joey both have accused me of being bipolar and I have always justified it as my heart feeling torn between doing the right thing and saving them. I hate when people are upset with me so I always go back on my word.
The more I research and look through the information my aunt was given the more I'm assured this is part of a huge problem for me.
But I won't say anything aloud rather just cope silently and figure a way to deal.
This is why my marriage failed.
I was told last night this is why. My sudden mood swings and flipping my switch. Then today I find out about my aunt.
Looks like a silent reflective night for me.