Saturday, May 21, 2016


I am still trying to find my peace and understanding. It would appear that J and B are back together. I now have to find a way to be okay with this since she does live here and it will be around me constantly.

I don't know how I'm going to do with but I know I can to ensure her happiness.

Yesterday provided much needed comfort and clarity.

My marriage was a sham. Nothing more. He never loved me. Its always been her even if she refuses to see it herself. 

I am forcing myself to move and try to deal with this silently.  I don't want her to feel like she has hide anything from me because this is her home and she is free to be with whomever she chooses.