I've spent a lot of thinking and reflecting over the last few days. My moods seem to swing like no other lately. I can't put these feelings into words. I want to see happiness but it is also painful. I think this is why I am so determined to just sink back to where I used to be. To be quiet and reflecting.
The fighting has spiked my anxiety and in large it is my fault. This is why it is crucial for me to step back and just be. Just watch everything around me.
I slept but it doesn't feel like it. My eyes are heavy and I could crash. Why must I always feel so tired?
Laundry is back on track, Ally is hanging with Nana for a few, I am going to enjoy a bowl of Ramen then dig back into the housework.
I just wish people would stop pointing out my faults and encourage me. Not talk behind my back.Everyday it is bittersweet. I see why I was not chosen. I see my faults. I see why I'm not the one.
Time to move past this and move forward.