I have been thinking a lot recently about Balance and where we truly need to be in life. Where I'll feel like I'm my best self. After yesterday it feels like nobody believes I've truly changed.
I've found a love in solitude and just worrying about me. I've always been a people pleaser and had this strong need for acceptance. I try to always see the good in people and that is often better said than done.
On the flipside I'm done trying to mend bonds that only being drama. Do I want my daughter to know her siblings? Of course I do but at what cost?
I refuse to bring my daughter around the constant bullshit. After recent events I'll never be okay with Ally being alone with certain people simply because I'll fear for her life.
I made a serious effort to show I was willing to meet halfway for Ally. I was really hurt yesterday by other events. I know I wear my heart on my sleeve but that's who I am.
I do My best not to feed into the drama especially when those that post about loyalty and faith in relationship forget that they had affairs. Where is the loyalty in that?
Today I'll be focusing on self care. I have the bedroom to myself while Ally is at school so I'm going to burn some incense and try to relax.
It isn't always priority number one for everyone to know everything. Sometimes silence truly is golden.