I'm not sure where my headspace is lately. I hate these feelings I have had lately and I know that part of it is January will forever put me in a funk. Sometimes I wonder if others realize the pain they inflict.
My body has been in excruciating pain in the few weeks. I'm near tears daily with my back pain worsening.
This is Ally's last day of freedom before school resumes and she is spending it with my grandma today. I'll be spending it in bed trying to catch some sleep.
I wish there was someone I could talk to that would understand an ounce of what I'm feeling. Somebody that would guide in the right direction and help me figure out what I'm doing wrong.
I just feel lost.